Caleb Cavely
My uncle Kevin,
Man, so much craziness in the world and never a break in the rotation or the tic in the clock.. I dont want to try to sound all poetic thats just what came to my mind. I thought it was kinda cool i feel like you would have too. Its kinda got a few ways of bein looked at you know? So its been a good 7 years and the worlds been turning all the while and its hard for me to register all thats taken place sometimes, in my life and the world around me period. I know theres times, especially now that im older, that i find myself needing somebody that could tell me something i needed to hear or fill me in on an easier way of dealing with sh#! And it actually mean something to me, be something i could really apply. Everyone needs that time to time no matter how bad or good, hard or soft, reclusive or obnoxious of a person, we all need it from a place it would resinate with us. People throw stuff out there like that all the time but it takes a certain person and place and time for it to hit home you know.. I know if you were here youd be able to guide me in so many things i cant seem tofind my way in.. You had that effect on me in the times we did get to kick it but i was younger and didnt look at it or appreciate it for what it was or take advantage as i know you would have loved to guide me all you could. Now that im grown and have seen more of the way of the world i find myself thinking “damnit i wish my uncle Kevin was still here, hed stear me right”. My family is small these days and most in it arent even blood but thats a whole other can of worms, point is i dont very many male figures or figures at all that i can pridefully and confidently turn to and take from and i know you were one, still would be. i almost know what youd say and how youd look saying it in some exchanges i play through in my head lol. You were a stand up dude and theres less than a few of those left around at all it seems like but thats what i try to be and i guess i just wish i could pick your brain n soul for ways to stay true even after being so exiled and downright rejected and drug through the mud in the places and times we really gave our all and our best..you did that if you didnt do anything else and it still sticks out to me now about you and thats the way i know i have to be to make it and make something of myself in life just like you would have went on to do.. I cant consult you in the flesh but you were a powerful enough presence and person period that i can consult those times it shone through to me, your nephew, while you were here still. Thats amazing man. You were amazing and you still inspire me to push on in the worst, i mean the worst of my self doubt or lack of get-up-and-go. I was thinkin of you and came across this. Im glad i did and im glad it too. I love you unc. I got some ink for you and i know you see me down here taking it in stride as best i can holding out that itll all pay off and i just need you to stick with me. We miss you. You were too bright for this place and thats all im gonna accept if there was a “reason” for you leaving so early. You were just too bright. Ill see you again and i know you got my back til then.